today has been a total disaster. i don't even think i want to speak to lauren anymore, i want to resolve things, but everytime i try & explain the way she is she twists things around & like makes me feel really guilty & stuff. it's weird & tbh really hard to talk about. the more she pushes me away & makes me feel shit, the more i just want to try ( Read more... )

my life is in serius need of a makeover. something somewhere has gone wrong with me & i don't like. i haven't posted an lj entry in forever, i'm extremely lazy, i can't be bothered with life & i feel like i'm slipping away from friends. namely lauren [who i most definately do not want to loose] & a couple of lj-ers. i want to reconnect with them as ( Read more... )

For starters I apologise for the emo-ness of this entry. I'm feeling kinda strange tonight & I have the feeling you get when your sinus' hurt when you have a cold, but it's like making me want to cry, if you understand me. I don't know why I'm upset tbh. I guess there's a lot happening & changing in my life right now & I'm confused about where I'm ( Read more... )

How is it that you're surrounded by the most fantastic people in the world, yet feel so alone? Things are getting bad. Not only can I feel it but I have urges, unpleasent urges & they can only spell trouble...

Please don't worry about me, I'm sure it'll all pass it's just being in this place that hurts the most.

Hopefully, tomorrow will look up